Saturday, October 31, 2009

Halloween Night

Planning to celebrate Halloween night at Redbox with my bibi
so around 9 somethings we reach The curve
After dinner at Kim Gary and head forward to Redbox
and who knows that place is fully booked...lol
so end up watching movie
Anyway the curve that street is so happening
but that's just for clubber
ME NOT...haha...=P
Hmm... not bad la... even that late we still manage to get a couple seat for Phobia 2
This is a combine ghost story movie...
Wow...i like this movie...especially the ending
Damn funny
never watch any ghost movie that have this kind of ending before...lol

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Course Fee

Once again i need to ask my dad 2 pay 4 my college fees again...
and once again I have an uncomfortable feeling...sad...worry...or is it stress...
but 1 things 4 sure is that I will sure kena insult... insult for always playing computer and no study... going out and bla bla...
even I'm doing my part...
out once a week or twice and definitely not more than that....
getting back home at 6pm after studying at college and asking me go study more and not facing computer...
zzz....all this rubbish i just hear more than once in a month...
and it use 2 be my habit 2 ignore it...
However, I really don't like that very much!!!
In my mind... everyday I am hoping that I can graduate faster...
and start my career...
Stop depending on my parents...
I hate depending on them...
I hate the feeling
cause when u depends on someone...
You have no no right to say anythings...
You have no freedom...
You have no choice but 2 follow what they say even is wrong
and one more things is... when you depends on them... that's the biggest weakness point of you 2 them...
they might use this to insult you whenever you have an argument with them... cause you have nothing to say on it... and you have to agree what they say and do exactly what they say.
I HATE THAT...
who will like letting people holding up your weakness point
NOBODY

Help! Help! Help!
Asking for help... Useless
What to do???
I have just did many bad things previously that's make them disappointed on me
no more trusted on me
ONLY ME MYSELF
can help myself now
I must work even harder now
study with heart
aiming for A's and not pass
and for this final year...
I'm going
To show them To proof to them...
I'm no longer the previous me
PLEASE DON'T INSULT ME ANYMORE...

Sunday, October 25, 2009

To My Dearest

Sorry bibi
this week i can't really out with you on this week due to my family problem...
I m now really have no choice but 2 accept what my parents say...
4 my parents...even you are wrong i will accept it also...coz no matter how you are, you are still my parents...
4 myself...i need not follow their step...i can differentiate what is right and what is wrong...i need to become even better...especially my attitude...i should make a change on it so that i will not disappointed my love 1....
and 4 my sis...hope you all will not follow the way like how our parents do...tat is not a good attitude 2 follow....

Family Problem

"Dad, you just know how 2 say only la..."
just depend on this word it doesn't sounds like an offensive word...
but when you add in more point 2 hold your right...
it make the things even worst....

What makes me say tat...
just because i trying 2 complain that my parents always say such insulting words...
and is it there is no right 2 complain about your parents...maybe it is true
NO matter whats your parents attitude is...
you have no choice but 2 accept them
"From the moment I born you out...you have no right to judge what kind of attitude I have but 2 accept it...
how suffer they raise you up...
I can even choose to destroy you when you inside my stomach...
you are consider lucky because I have let you appear to this world...
and yet you all are still not sastify with it and yet still wan to say your parents...
how would happened if those children who raise up in a problematic family...
did them voice out anythings about their parents...they wouldn't you know...
YOU ARE CONSIDER LUCKY..."
saying to my dad "Don't be crazy la...listen to what your son's say.."


All their mind set is they born you...and you as a son you have no right 2 judge them...
and did they know...why there is many son or daughter who hate their mom 4ever...
did they know why...
why those children will have no choice but 2 follow their bad daddy or mommy
coz they have no choice...they can't fight 4 themselves...
but in the future... will they appreciate their parents...they wouldn't
is not bcoz they dun appreciate their parents...
is bcoz their parents did somethings tat can't be forgiven

Compare to others definitely my parents not tat worst...
is just i feel my mom is tat type tat wouldn't listen 2 others...
it is not juz oni me...among my family...my dad even relatives or who else... she will bcoz of small matter argue until a big serious problems...

I don't know is it rite 2 say them
but definitely that day i m not trying 2 say them but discuss about their attitude...
definitely all parents definitely will say their children...
but is it rite 4 a parents 2 say their son in an insulting way...
look down on them...saying them stupid...
i am not comparing with others family...but insulting is not a good attitude...
what way should i use 2 communicate wit our parents
is it in their eyes we are still consider a kid 4 them
why everything i do they also wan say about...just 4 car using...i juz use it once or twice a week...is it consider over?
why they wan always dun let me do tat do this, ask me do tat do this...
why everytimes a son fight back 4 their right is definitely wrong...

maybe i should not mind on what my parents saying...
maybe the way they express their care is just in a wrong way
what they want 2 tell is hope i dun always like tat
but maybe they just 2 mind
in their mind
they just think i m stil a child...
in future i will not say them anymore
but 2 keep quiet
i know how hard they raise me up
we as a child we just like their heavy stone...we giving them more stresses but still didn't do anythings support them and yet still complain about them...
thinking on the other way round...
i think i really did somethings wrong...
Hope my parents will forgive me...