Course Fee

Once again i need to ask my dad 2 pay 4 my college fees again...
and once again I have an uncomfortable feeling...sad...worry...or is it stress...
but 1 things 4 sure is that I will sure kena insult... insult for always playing computer and no study... going out and bla bla...
even I'm doing my part...
out once a week or twice and definitely not more than that....
getting back home at 6pm after studying at college and asking me go study more and not facing computer...
zzz....all this rubbish i just hear more than once in a month...
and it use 2 be my habit 2 ignore it...
However, I really don't like that very much!!!
In my mind... everyday I am hoping that I can graduate faster...
and start my career...
Stop depending on my parents...
I hate depending on them...
I hate the feeling
cause when u depends on someone...
You have no no right to say anythings...
You have no freedom...
You have no choice but 2 follow what they say even is wrong
and one more things is... when you depends on them... that's the biggest weakness point of you 2 them...
they might use this to insult you whenever you have an argument with them... cause you have nothing to say on it... and you have to agree what they say and do exactly what they say.
I HATE THAT...
who will like letting people holding up your weakness point
NOBODY

Help! Help! Help!
Asking for help... Useless
What to do???
I have just did many bad things previously that's make them disappointed on me
no more trusted on me
ONLY ME MYSELF
can help myself now
I must work even harder now
study with heart
aiming for A's and not pass
and for this final year...
I'm going
To show them To proof to them...
I'm no longer the previous me
PLEASE DON'T INSULT ME ANYMORE...