Course Fee

Once again i need to ask my dad 2 pay 4 my college fees again...
and once again I have an uncomfortable feeling...sad...worry...or is it stress...
but 1 things 4 sure is that I will sure kena insult... insult for always playing computer and no study... going out and bla bla...
even I'm doing my part...
out once a week or twice and definitely not more than that....
getting back home at 6pm after studying at college and asking me go study more and not facing computer...
zzz....all this rubbish i just hear more than once in a month...
and it use 2 be my habit 2 ignore it...
However, I really don't like that very much!!!
In my mind... everyday I am hoping that I can graduate faster...
and start my career...
Stop depending on my parents...
I hate depending on them...
I hate the feeling
cause when u depends on someone...
You have no no right to say anythings...
You have no freedom...
You have no choice but 2 follow what they say even is wrong
and one more things is... when you depends on them... that's the biggest weakness point of you 2 them...
they might use this to insult you whenever you have an argument with them... cause you have nothing to say on it... and you have to agree what they say and do exactly what they say.
I HATE THAT...
who will like letting people holding up your weakness point
NOBODY

Help! Help! Help!
Asking for help... Useless
What to do???
I have just did many bad things previously that's make them disappointed on me
no more trusted on me
ONLY ME MYSELF
can help myself now
I must work even harder now
study with heart
aiming for A's and not pass
and for this final year...
I'm going
To show them To proof to them...
I'm no longer the previous me
PLEASE DON'T INSULT ME ANYMORE...

To My Dearest

Sorry bibi
this week i can't really out with you on this week due to my family problem...
I m now really have no choice but 2 accept what my parents say...
4 my parents...even you are wrong i will accept it also...coz no matter how you are, you are still my parents...
4 myself...i need not follow their step...i can differentiate what is right and what is wrong...i need to become even better...especially my attitude...i should make a change on it so that i will not disappointed my love 1....
and 4 my sis...hope you all will not follow the way like how our parents do...tat is not a good attitude 2 follow....

Family Problem

"Dad, you just know how 2 say only la..."
just depend on this word it doesn't sounds like an offensive word...
but when you add in more point 2 hold your right...
it make the things even worst....

What makes me say tat...
just because i trying 2 complain that my parents always say such insulting words...
and is it there is no right 2 complain about your parents...maybe it is true
NO matter whats your parents attitude is...
you have no choice but 2 accept them
"From the moment I born you out...you have no right to judge what kind of attitude I have but 2 accept it...
how suffer they raise you up...
I can even choose to destroy you when you inside my stomach...
you are consider lucky because I have let you appear to this world...
and yet you all are still not sastify with it and yet still wan to say your parents...
how would happened if those children who raise up in a problematic family...
did them voice out anythings about their parents...they wouldn't you know...
YOU ARE CONSIDER LUCKY..."
saying to my dad "Don't be crazy la...listen to what your son's say.."


All their mind set is they born you...and you as a son you have no right 2 judge them...
and did they know...why there is many son or daughter who hate their mom 4ever...
did they know why...
why those children will have no choice but 2 follow their bad daddy or mommy
coz they have no choice...they can't fight 4 themselves...
but in the future... will they appreciate their parents...they wouldn't
is not bcoz they dun appreciate their parents...
is bcoz their parents did somethings tat can't be forgiven

Compare to others definitely my parents not tat worst...
is just i feel my mom is tat type tat wouldn't listen 2 others...
it is not juz oni me...among my family...my dad even relatives or who else... she will bcoz of small matter argue until a big serious problems...

I don't know is it rite 2 say them
but definitely that day i m not trying 2 say them but discuss about their attitude...
definitely all parents definitely will say their children...
but is it rite 4 a parents 2 say their son in an insulting way...
look down on them...saying them stupid...
i am not comparing with others family...but insulting is not a good attitude...
what way should i use 2 communicate wit our parents
is it in their eyes we are still consider a kid 4 them
why everything i do they also wan say about...just 4 car using...i juz use it once or twice a week...is it consider over?
why they wan always dun let me do tat do this, ask me do tat do this...
why everytimes a son fight back 4 their right is definitely wrong...

maybe i should not mind on what my parents saying...
maybe the way they express their care is just in a wrong way
what they want 2 tell is hope i dun always like tat
but maybe they just 2 mind
in their mind
they just think i m stil a child...
in future i will not say them anymore
but 2 keep quiet
i know how hard they raise me up
we as a child we just like their heavy stone...we giving them more stresses but still didn't do anythings support them and yet still complain about them...
thinking on the other way round...
i think i really did somethings wrong...
Hope my parents will forgive me...

Nose Facial

Getting overnight at my BiBi house that day, cause tomorrow will be her day to got for interview at somewhere around PJ Old Town for her new job. Going to accompany her for the interview at early of the morning. Giving her some support. And for sure she make it. all things going smooth and the interviewer quite sastify with her portfolio, and a bit shock too. Cause getting to know that what she previouly doing in her company is quite a big project. So she give herself 9 out of 10 marks for her that day performace. Even me too. I do help her arrange up her portfolio sure i confident on it.... haha... =P

Later on we go and have a lunch with her sister while getting her sister back also... working half day cause her sis is seriouly sick... fever yet flu... but not as serious as H1N1 la... lol... So after lunch we back. Thought wanna go for singing k but because yesterday too late sleep, tired end up having a afternoon nap at her house. Guess wha... not really fall asleep... but go for a nose facial.. haha... she help me do... saying my nose have many blackheads... actually is i ask for it also... haha... cause can't get to sleep.

When doing nose facial, we shoot many of our funny picture
Za Dao


Burst mode



=@



=)



^^



Couple shirt


We having a great day that day... doing many things together... knowing each other better... and the time past so fast... but the moment we use to be together... will remain inside our memory... our heart... hehe... =)

Perhaps I Think Too Much

Yesterday night can't really sleep well
knowing somethings that I haven't settle
I m not avoiding from the problem...
just dun wanna simply think so much on it
cause I realize is me myself who making out the pressure on me...
getting know you i getting know myself more...
getting to give myself an aim...
getting to give myself an expectation
And is not you who high expectation
but me....
Wanna give you the best...
feeling stress on it...

Every human do have pressure
I am pretty sure
Pressure can come in different way
maybe in relation, working
or his or her the other part
family, friends and others
And this kind of pressure will never end until the end of your life
But it just depends on how one's going to release all this pressure
Some may chose to avoid
that's the last time me
but now I'm not.

I would rather think rationale
thinking the main cause of this pressure
As for yesterday I know it would be mine problem
That's why i need time to think through myself clearly...
instead of letting this pressure driven me emotional...
turning me into a FUCKING IDIOT

SHOPAHOLICS

Is it compulsory for every girls to become a SHOPAHOLICS???
Is it compulsory that every girls should love shopping???
Is it compulsory that every girls should spend more time in shopping???
Is it compulsory that every girls should waste money on shopping???
Is it that's the only hobbies that girl's have???

Even they know they doesn't have sufficient money
but still wanna go shopping for it
sometimes spend until over their limit
is it that's the future you girls wanna have???
getting can't save any money until the end of life???
or depends on guy
giving you a no credit limit credit card to use as you want
sponsor you all the way???
is it that's the happiness is what's a girl want
if YES
then sorry
I have not that capable enough to give what you want...

IS ALL MONEY MATTER???

Really don't understand girl
is it their image is that so important
everyday just wanna be fashionable
be more attractive
is it this is a habit that assist when born???
because of wanna getting a better image
don't even care about their financial problem???
SO SICK OF IT

So Good Boy Me

Now staying at house with my 2 little small sister
playing monopoly
why no going out with my girl
haha....
maybe because feel tired gua... and the weather outside so damn Hot
don't feel like wanna out
so at last she choose to go out with her sister
going One Utama
and me going no where
sleep maybe
actually I hope to go out with her also
but a bit worry that my mom mumble me for no taking care of my 2 small sister and going out with no responsible as an elder brother
another things is tonight me and my family going out for dinner
celebrating mother's day
hehe... I get a Dorothy Perkins bag for my mom
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

And BiBi
if me choose to go out with you
then tonight the family dinner will not be family dinner anymore
and not even mother's day
mmm....
maybe tomorrow... I will go out with you oO

At My BiBi House

Well....erm as usual right now I'm at her house...plan to watch movie...but not now cause shhh... I found out some secret of her...and this secret is there is many photo of her i have never saw before
and some of this is what we took last week when we went for shopping
so when the time she not around
I using her computer to upload all this photo
haha...=P
and this the most pretty one among of all

haha...

sure yet there is other photo also

All this we shoot before we went to The Garden shopping
in the car
using her new bought handphone to shoot

That day we do go The Garden Red Box Karaoke
But not much photo we shoot
haha...
cause the lighting there not so so nice
and she keep on say this one not nice that and these
so until the end we get none zero photo at the Red Box
Haihz.... girl is like that... so mind about their image

Only manage to get mine the one shooting only....lol

Talk Somethings Wrong

Yesterday when going to sleep
I realize one things
realize that yesterday when you fetch me to Mid Valley
met up with a bad temper taxi driver
i should not ask you to go faster cross over him
HOW COME YOU SO SLOW!!!
I should talk somethings positive instead of negative making you more tension
I should tell you not to care
not to bother
or talk somethings positive and support you
SORRY if get to hurt you BiBi...

After Four Days Of Holiday

Don't feel like go work a....
getting bored with my working life maybe holiday too much
make myself even lazy
in the other way round thinking
even i didn't go to work
i don't have anythings else to do at house
instead of staying at house
better stay at office
yet can get money
IT'S TIME TO GO!!!